catharsis

so i guess i've had a lot of built up tension inside about different things and yesterday the tears kept coming - kind of like during my batch. and the bad part was twice it was before work but three times it was at work. and i try to keep my personal life and my work life separate but it was so overwhelming that it just happened. it didn't help that my patient had to get put on a ventilator last night with anesthesia there and her BP was 80/40 for about 2 hours before her cardiac drips started to kick in. i was seriously in my room for 6 straight hours without a break. it was a mess but as joey says - saving lives. anyway, after all of that i was talking to my co-workers about people questioning your beliefs and your standards and it set me off again and i started crying again. and it was hard but very cathartic. and aileen and i went to breakfast this morning and we talked and she put it really simply. God has a plan for all of us and some of us just take different paths. not necessarily bad but different. and she's right. He always knows what's right for us. and I should trust Him and not doubt what I believe in just because the world thinks otherwise.