stuck

sometimes it's hard because there comes a point where you ask yourself where do you draw the line? faith and hope play a big part in this life. but working in the icu is so hard. we've had patients that have been in the hospital since september and october - specifically in the icu - and are so sick - their bodies rotting from the inside out or wasting away to a cachectic state yet their families still pray for a miracle, something that will help them turn the corner. as a clinician you want them to say it's ok to let them go because they really are rotting from the inside out. but in your heart, with all of your faith and hope, you do hope that they can somehow get better. how do you balance? that's when it's hard. where do we come in? and hence i get stuck.

life changes

so i was talking to j mo last night and we were talking about life changes. so many people around us are going through life changes right now and it's crazy how we're all caught up in it - some good, some bad, but definitely life changing. i always come to realize more and more how we can't ever take things for granted in this life. we do have to take one day at a time. and it's much easier when we have support.
in brighter news, thanksgiving and christmas are almost upon us! how fun! can't wait for the holidays! i think we're supposed to have a housewarming some day soon but that takes planning that i have yet to do =)